Ponder

to ponder is to think and to think is digging into something more than just what a first glance gives you. you'll learn about yourself and how you think. I hear that you cant fully control what comes to mind so training your brain is a must. getting to a certain vibrations or wavelengths in order to have a generality of similar thoughts. watch your thought as if they are swimming by you. don't catch and hold on to everything that comes to your mind, sometimes you must release a few thought to get to better more sought for ideas.

bothers me

i don't know why but for some reason my dad not being there for me really bothers me this year. He did say that he never wanted to have anything to do with me again but i think that's a little extreme. I don't think that there is a daddy in the world that would give up his little girl on the drop of a dime. I mean, i tell myself that but who knows if thats the truth ...

Bringing up the past

So i am missing my bf and he's missing me. His friends think that it's okay to hit on me. I ignore them because my bf should keep his friends in check right? Nope, apparently that's my job. He gets mad at me because im not enough of a bitch to them when they hit on me?? Alright?? am I wrong or what? The thing is my friends don't even talk to him, they don't message him, they dont chat with him. I don't have to worry about my friends doing any of that because they respect me too much. Then later on he is being distant on Skype and im like well check out my tumblr! We can look at pretty pictures. He sees a guy that he thinks looks like my ex and then brings it up... im like FUCK YOU.. last straw, no more talking to you for the rest of the night and maybe tomorrow.

Sleeping

Some of you may know me and some of you don't but for those of you who know me, know that I have problems sleeping sometimes. Which I am sure that may of you are not a stranger to either. Anywho, I ... sometimes have to take meds to go to sleep. I was wondering if anyone out there deep in the internet have experience with anything like what I am explaining. Would like to know about the dreams that you may have had. About how you felt when you woke up after a "restful" nights sleep. Things of that nature. Thanks! - Tori

Shopping

I swear that shopping at this time of year gets worst every year. I went to WM<< with my mom and it was horrid; people are rude. I thought that this was the time of love and cheer... not the case. Not in Mississippi anyway. I just wanted to walk the rows of toys in peace but no, people have to bump into me and rush around like chickens with their heads cut off...

Sick Days

Being sick sucks and we all know this as a fact. Getting better takes time and you must give your body the times it needs to heal. That means that you need to take it easy. Read a great book, even re-read an old book. I like to hangout with a hot cup of tea under a soft blanket watching T.V. or playing video games just giving my body a rest. What about you?

Today

There are good days and there are bad days but this one was one of the days that make me take a step back and say, "Wow, I have a great life." There are so many people that I've met that don't realize how good they have it. Wish that I could bring how wonder their life is to light to them but that's not my job nor is it something that I feel is my place to do. This post on the other hand can substitute as a reminder for how you should become aware of what you have and be happy to have the life you live.